After the story was over Lainey broke down crying. This is simply not like her. I asked her what was wrong. She said, “I don’t want to get sick.” It occurred to me that she believed that having diabetes would make her sick. Lainey defines “sick” as throwing up, so she was concerned that this would happen to her. She laid her head on my arm sobbing, and I was ready to cry myself.
I sat her up and explained to her that she isn’t sick anymore because we are taking care of her. I opened the book again and showed her that the boy was sick when he didn’t have his insulin, but once he had that, and tools like his meter, he was happy and healthy again. I tried to help her understand that she would be sick if she didn’t have these things, but she is okay.
It has been interesting watching Lainey gain a better understanding of her situation. Often she takes things in stride and learns a little as she goes, but once in a while a realization hits her pretty hard, and it is scary for her. It is times like these that I wish the most that she didn’t have this disease. It is so hard to see my 3 year old daughter worry about things that are so real.
Lainey finally calmed down, and seemed to understand that diabetes would not make her throw up, but it can make her feel bad. She knows that her pump and her meter are tools that help her condition. Most importantly, she knows that we are here to support her, along with her Diabetic Teddy Bear that she has named 'Lainey'."
I just wanted to say a big "Thank You" to all my diabetic moms in the blogging world. Thanks for the comments on my post last night. They buoyed me up. You are all truly wonderful people, and I'm grateful to be apart of "our family". Those comments made me realize how much I've missed you.