Thursday, November 19, 2009

1,000 Days

I’m fascinated with numbers. I like those programs where you can figure a time between two dates, down to the second. I think I get this fascination from my grandma.

I remember in elementary school celebrating the first 100 days of school. We’d play games, count out 100 pennies, and make a fun day out of it. I couldn’t believe that I’d been in school that long.

About a month ago I got on the internet and found a program that’d calculate the number of days. My start day was February 22, 2007. My end day came up as November 18, 2009.

Lainey has had diabetes for 1,000 days.

At first I wanted to make a party out of it, some sort of celebration. A “look and see how far we’ve come” sort of thing. But as the day drew closer, I found myself wanting to ignore it. Forget it. Let it pass us by without remembrance.

Because, you see, Lainey has only been alive for 1,390 days.

There are times I wish we could go back to those first 390 days; when life seemed simpler; when counting carbs in food was nonexistent; when I was afraid of needles; when I didn’t have to see blood multiple times a day.

But then I think back to these last 1,000 days; how my weaknesses don’t seems like weaknesses anymore; what my daughter has taught me about courage; how we’ve both grown to become stronger individuals, along this diabetic journey that is now our life.

Sure, I can mourn what used to be. Or I can celebrate and enjoy the present.

The choice is mine.


Meri said...

I feel the same way. Diabetes is ALL about mixed feelings. Maybe you'll be ready to celebrate/or commemorate at 2000 days. Maybe do something small to remember this one. :)

phonelady said...

Hi meagan my name is cathy and i m sure you can find me cause now I am following you . I see we have quite a few followers in common such as meri , shamae and wendy to name just a few lol . Please come and follow me if you would like .

Shannon said...

Megann, thank you for visiting my blog! I am excited to get to know you better!

Your daughter is beautiful!

Jen said...

Hi Meagan,
Thanks for you post. My son Addison is almost 3 now and has had diabetes since he was 15 months old.Some days are so hard and on those days I sometimes imagine how much easier life would be without diabetes. But, like you said, it does make us stronger and gives us and our children courage and we have to celebrate that for sure!

Laura Houston said...

If nothing else you should be so proud of yourself and Lainey. 1,000 days - WOW! You've both grown so much and come so far. Congratulations on your 1,000th day - maybe not the most appropriate thing to write but you did it! You made it! You have survived it! We are all do much stronger than we thought. So, congratulations.

We are all here to cheer each other on . . .


Nicole said...

Hello Megann,
I just sent you an email about the necklaces. Your daughter is beautiful and I love the way you have our blogs posted not by the name of the blog but the people who write them and who are in them... Great thinking!!

Can't wait to read more!!

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